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Hello, this is pastor Steve speaking. I am temporarily out of the office, but if you will leave your name and phone number at the sound of the tone, I will return your call when I get back…
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[INTRO: CHOIRS]
[HOOK]
I confess,
I’m a mess,
I'm a dog,
I'm a pest,
I need help,
I'm possessed,
I need sess
I need sess
I should gather all my demons,
I feel blessed, for no reason,
I feel blessed, lord forgive me,
I feel blessed, lord forgive me
I'm a mess,
What is stress?
What is peace,
What is death,
What is love,
What is death?
Nothing left
Nothing left
I should gather all my demons,
I feel blessed for no reason,
I feel blessed lord forgive me,
I feel blessed lord forgive me
[VERSE 1]
Let it be known if there’s ever death in these poems,
I’m settling the onus on with perfect performance,
Settle the score like Lector & co
And it’s like leather to Jaw with metal & saws
Tragedy that is Hamlet,
Anxiety choosing it’s part,
The safdies with the adam,
Grab our knees in the tandem,
Aphrodisia springs,
As I vanish clean into blackness,
If Adam & Eve could imagine,
A plan to leave when it happened
As angel Gabriel holds me
And keeps me close to the heavens,
Think “This moment is perfect”,
Seek the lord for repentance,
Creeks are opening and closing
I see the form of the temptress,
Will Jehova respect this
Or clip my rosary necklace?
Peep my oxygen levels
I’m tryna reach for the clouds,
And I can’t breathe through my mouth,
And I go limp to the ground,
They said they found me choked while sound asleep on the couch,
When the, the lord is close to the brokenhearted
[HOOK]
I confess,
I’m a mess,
I'm a dog,
I'm a pest,
I need help,
I'm possessed,
I need sess
I need sess
I should gather all my demons,
I feel blessed, for no reason,
I feel blessed, lord forgive me,
I feel blessed, lord forgive me
I'm a mess,
What is stress?
What is peace,
What is death,
What is love,
What is death?
Nothing left
Nothing left
I should gather all my demons,
I feel blessed for no reason,
I feel blessed lord forgive me,
I feel blessed lord forgive me
[VERSE 2]
To be young and so innocent,
You think love is so imminent,
Ones that you’re close,
In the end you suffer the most,
The butter the toast,
The tears from the hunger that grows,
A punch in the throat,
The second that you happened to cope.
So when my ( ) touched me
I didn't believe it,
I still keep it a secret,
Blinked as I heaved at the ceiling
Last words to my granny,
Didn't even mean it,
I sit wishing she treated me
How I need to be treated
So maybe i’ll met her in heaven
And speak of these feelings,
Though my descent will be Hellish,
Highway 6 in a chariot,
The finest steed for the hellion,
Hyperspeed as it bellows,
Fuck the need for the help
Cause it’s what I did to myself
Put the bow on the casket,
Decompose into blackness,
Figaro,
The trumpets and hymns below,
The sycamores,
All Begin to Grow in the winter snow,
They shine and glisten gold,
Osiris bring me home,
Skin and bones
[HOOK X2]
I confess,
I’m a mess,
I'm a dog,
I'm a pest,
I need help,
I'm possessed,
I need sess,
I need sess
I should gather all my demons,
I feel blessed, for no reason,
I feel blessed, lord forgive me,
I feel blessed, lord forgive me
I'm a mess,
What is stress,
What is peace,
What is death,
What is love,
What is death?
Nothing left,
Nothing left
This is part of all my demons,
I feel blessed for no reason,
I feel blessed lord forgive me,
I feel blessed lord forgive me
[OUTRO: Morgan-Paige on vocals and piano]
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[HOOK: Pupil Slicer]
The nothingness to which I aspire,
Fed by parasites, they revel in every single second of the pain,
Overwhelming, can't fix a problem that's rooted in the imperfection of my existence
The nothingness to which I aspire,
Fed by parasites, they revel in every single second of the pain,
Overwhelming, can't fix a problem that's rooted in the imperfection of my existence
[VERSE 1: Backxwash]
I feel nervous when people are staring,
The evil that carries
Is lethal and varied,
Glaring,
It’s there in its deepest of currents
I need a piece
with a switch and a ‘matic,
Even the faggots need lethal advantage (boom boom boom boom)
I keep thinking bout Jesus of Nazareth
If he was that active
He’d spring into action
Maybe just Caesar would have it
And fear is protection without
The seers telling me that my future is caught shot dead in the mouth
Im paranoid when I step out the house
These pills makin it hard to hide
While my peers airing it out
Delicate how?
Now that you've mentioned it, wow
I'm wound up and I doubt they they let me live now
I don't need the embellishment
I’m just fearing the predicate
Of needing a weapon
And I think that I get it then
Cause if I can't live
Then you can't live,
Blood is thicker than everything
[HOOKx2: Pupil Slicer]
The nothingness to which I aspire,
Fed by parasites, they revel in every single second of the pain,
Overwhelming, can't fix a problem that's rooted in the imperfection of my existence
[VERSE 2: Backxwash]
Coca Cola kalashnikov
Scope coming from Wichita
Chrome colored
A shot into bone fractures
And shishkabob
The dome splatter
He’s calling he won't answer
The phone hang up
Hanging outside with old yella
See where these hots headed
Now he’s so hot headed
Victim turned pot kettle
Peace with a hot metal
And it’s so sad that it’s sickening
How I turned from victim to a villain
So what's to stop me
From grabbing a shotty
Putting 10 in my body
In the lobby
While the denizen’s watching
And I hope that it’s quicker
Than the sedatives, probably
With a note and a sticker
To remember me properly
See that’s where I be heading
So why I keep pretendin’
There’s a happy ending
When every second I get the message
Let me spell it on the record
Cause if I can’t live
Then you can’t live
Blood is thicker than everything
[OUTRO HOOK: Pupil Slicer]
The nothingness to which I aspire,
Fed by parasites, they revel in every single second of the pain,
Overwhelming, can't fix a problem that's rooted in the imperfection of my existence
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MUZUNGU
04:09
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[HOOK]
As I peel in my skin
Dig in my vein
I'm watching the demons within
I'm watching this evil come out
As I’m tryna come in, and
As the rope on my chin
Chokes all my kin
I'm watching my niggas go limp
I'm watching these moments forever I'll never forget, get
[VERSE 1]
God say hang those niggas
No bandage needed
On the back of jesus
Where's Nebekenezer
Ecclesiastes, Jesus, or Bethlem, Caesar
With my head on the concrete,
Sole of slavers
Feel the taste of the underneath
It's mob behavior
If heaven needs 'em
They'll praise and lead 'em
Let's blame the eves then
Snakes for treason
The dead won't listen
If lord forgives em
He'll take a minute for selfish reasons
If hell forgives him
Have better chances
Avenge the past then
Let's take it back and just
Pay 'em back for every happenin’
[HOOK]
As I peel in my skin
Dig in my vein
I'm watching my demons within
I'm watching this evil come out
As I’m tryna come in, and
As the rope on my chin
Chokes all my kin
I'm watching my niggas go limp
I'm watching these moments forever I'll never forget, get
[VERSE 2]
In the land of the corpses of men
How hot can you get
Without forming a sweat
The jolting brung
By the molten of flesh
Convulsing strung
In the chorus of death, and
How is that any different from my life before
The fights, the wars
The light, the source
The right, the wrong
The Pike, the sword
Ibuprofen, lighter doses
Held up, in the psychy wards
A Black Woman
With plights ignored
The sight, behold
It’s frightening
The nights is porous
I just thought if my life’s important
I wouldn’t have to pay a fortune for life’s assurance, and
[HOOK]
As I peel in my skin
I need to win
So, tearing a piece from my limb
I'm thinking bout all of the shit that I need to forgive
Fuck, fuck
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[VERSE 1: CENSORED DIALOGUE]
My momma said she’d kill me
If I call CPS
Then turn around and be confused
Why I ain’t bring home no guests
Now why the fuck you treating me
Like a vermin or pest
Strike me down with a vengeance
Leave me off of the crest
Daddy used to say
That they should’ve gotten rid of me
My whole life’s a cycle
Of them building and depleting me
Everything is sacred except me
I’m a commodity
I am the embodiment
Of all the world’s obscenities
I set fire to the mantle
Cuz it did me no good
I flew the fuck up off the handle
Like all good women should
Can’t hold a candle to the past
Because the name don’t exist
Now our connections are in shambles
Interaction so brisk
I wish we could talk through all the bad
But I know you’re sick
All redeeming qualities you had
Could never save this shit
I know your head is hard as bricks
So I must impart with this
The apple ain’t fall far
But at least I tried to roll a bit
[VERSE 2: SADISTIK]
Homie said God is my enemy
To show me he offered me ketamine
Rotten skin’s crawling with centipedes
How many shots til a cop is a memory?
Serpents all turned to Perseus
Leave you no altar to worship with
Sharks always circle him
Rottweiler bark like he Cerberus
All of my walls Black Paintings, all of my gods can’t save me
All of my opps can’t face me, all of their talks got gangrene
Hollow eyes watch all waiting
Homicides not off table
On a high got that scapegoat
Water my Columbines onto my halo
Watch how I change tones
He’s got his Father’s eyes, it's prophesied
I’ll pop a pill and watch the skies
Sometimes I feel I’m not alive
I wanna kill what's not aligned its all I find inside
Idle eyes got revitalized, pick up bad habits drop the vital signs
Look outside it's spiral lines, LA smog ripe with cyanide
Yea, I know how to spot em
Gimme that baggie I know that you got em
Lord of Gomorrah, Pope of the Sodom
Why would I off you there’s no one to watch ?
Write it in car fuel that’s glow in the dark
Light it and watch your soul go with the spark
I am an obstacle no one can cross
Yea, show em to god
[VERSE 3: BACKXWASH]
How to explain every shame
With all that I felt when I dealt with Cain
How did the rain bring so much pain
When they coulda melted it the same
How did the angels fall from my grace
And mix with the devils
Leave with their halo
Sinister rebels, demons and melkor,
Tip of the scales, wickedest sulfur
Picture of hell
Picture of heaven
You think of twelve
Think of the seven
I gave em help
Just need them to pray in
Fix all their faces
See the arrangements (FUCK)
I gotta keep all the planets from shifting the spaces
Vindictive complaining when all decisions are flagrant,
Then they need me to engage with
Hold up,
I did a lot for these bitches
I lived a rock for these bitches
I gave em pac
I’ve been the hope to these bitches
I brought the prophet to bitches
They’ll pay respects in the fire and brim,
Elijah and kin the violent things
Jesus will need to annihilate me
The Jesuits will sing from the highest of peaks
Beezlebub brought to his knees
Asmodeus, gon leap from the tallest of trees
Satan won't feel so forsaken
Now that the lord has awoken and brought all his grace in
I did it all cause I love em,
This is the compassion
If you don’t like it, then fuck em
The Alpha Omega, lord of the justice
One that’s above it (TRUST)
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MULUNGU
02:03
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[INTRO]
I put my body on display for the world to watch
I’ll twirl a lot to the point that I hurl a bunch
Coughing blood
Pain is attention
Dead and redemption
And like Saint Maud, I get cold
Beg for the pension
And if heaven is real
I regret what I feel
The devil is real
But nah, he won’t save me for real
And will my enemies feel
My repentance and guilt?
Or will they
Tell me what’s real and maybe end it for real?
And it’s the fear in the eyes of Yahweh
It’s the fear from the skies
It’s the fear every time that I’ll die
And every moment of sickness
I just call for forgiveness
Wondering if the thundering
Won’t stop as it comes for me
[CHOIRS]
We stand in need of a miracle
We stand in need of a miracle
We stand in need of a miracle
We stand in need of a miracle
[OUTRO - Glitch speech]
Well when in your day of judgment, they suffer and torment day and night.
I don’t think any one of you want to suffer day and night waiting for the day of judgment, and would rather go directly to heaven and meet the lord and savior face to face.
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[VERSE 1: GHAIS GUEVARA]
East side movin up
But niggas wasn’t elated
i know that niggas corrupt
because i’m the nigga that paid them
i know that the game is rigged
because i’m the nigga who rigged it
yall fuckin with coons and birds, niggas is Mordecai and Rigby
I aint get this from no vision
This a story once repeated
How niggas control ya space
Til you deleted
Bought the chain before the gun
Arrogance on display
They was tryna flash
We muzzle the flash
Prayin that we aint gotta spray
Cant blame a nigga for being a vulture
That’s just the memo
But i aint see it in his eyes
Way back when we was shoppin demos
Had i known to keep my enemies closer
Maybe he’d keep his composure
Never give a monkey ass nigga the toaster
Cause now he blowin his ego
Strikin innocents cause the recoil
Cause he wanna be the man
To have his bitch spoiled
He wanna be the man to feed the
Hood well
Yellow tape where the hood dwells
Unproper farewells
Last words was probably some
Dumb shit
[CHORUS: GHAIS GUEVARA]
What if you can't, do what you said
What if you not, all that you thought
What if you slip, what if you fall
What if you just, can't save em all
What of the guilt, what of the hate
What of the memories and mistakes
Niggas aint built, stay in ya lane
Niggas aint built, stay in ya lane
What if you can't, do what you said
What if you not, all that you thought
What if you slip, what if you fall
What if you just, can't save em all
What of the guilt, what of the hate
What of the memories and mistakes
Niggas aint built, stay in ya lane
Niggas aint built, stay in ya lane
[VERSE 2: BACKXWASH]
Left a homie with me
It was getting sticky
I needed to get out the closet
I was feeling straight out my options,
Had to dip it break out the problems
You were lonely thinking I’ll be home in 50,
Have a bone to pick, well I owe you plenty
It’s some shit that you don’t understand
Some shit that don’t feel like a man
Burnt the true religions at my crucifictions
I am luci-her not lucifer
Don’t judge me for staying true
If I saw me I would hate me too
In the blackface no joni mitchell
With my fat face in the holy temple
Is this drag race, or a bad phase
Or a stan page with a bad taste
Been in magazines with half a dream that I should have kept tucked
I do that rapping thing that we planned to be and it should have been us
Aren’t you proud of me, where the happy things, dawg superman up
I can get packed meat or vaseline or Applebee’s or a tapestry
Between you and I
I survived my own suicide
This is who I am, look alive
I'm holding out that you’ll do in time
If you don’t love me for being me I won't judge you for being you
Don’t judge me for being me I won’t judge me for being you
[CHORUS 2: BACKXWASH]
What If I did, what If I don't
What if it is, what if it’s not
What if it came, what if it didn’t
What if it did, maybe I won’t
Maybe I can’t, maybe I can
Maybe I’m not, maybe I am
Maybe I shoulda said something,
Maybe I shouldn’t say nothing
What If I did, what If I don't
What if it is, what if it’s not
What if it came, what if it didn’t
What if it did, maybe I won’t
Maybe I can’t, maybe I can
Maybe I’m not, maybe I am
What if I shoulda said something,
What if I shouldn’t say nothing
[OUTRO CHORUS: GHAIS GUEVARA]
What if you can't, do what you said
What if you not, all that you thought
What if you slip, what if you fall
What if you just, can't save em all
What of the guilt, what of the hate
What of the memories and mistakes
Niggas aint built, stay in ya lane
Niggas aint built, stay in ya lane
What if you can't, do what you said
What if you not, all that you thought
What if you slip, what if you fall
What if you just, can't save em all
What of the guilt, what of the hate
What of the memories and mistakes
Niggas aint built, stay in ya lane
Niggas aint built, stay in ya lane
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[VERSE 1]
Trouble at the door,
Crouching to the floor,
Feeling paranoid
Shadows seeping through the floors,
Think I’m losing every moment
Downing down a pour,
Downing down some more,
Seeing shit not there
Cops are at the door,
Lock it then explore,
Think of other options
Tell my mama I won't make it home
Hell or water seek the safest road
Heart is bleeding off the metronome (doo doo doo doo doo)
Beelzebub please take me home
I’ve been using so I'm losing all my motherfucking bearings
Snipped a couple of earrings, from the heiress
Fuck dealing with the people stairing, I’m about to nab a steering
Grab the tree, inhale then, till death then
[CHORUS]
Battling my Soul,
Have a screaming pulse
Blood up to my nose,
Rush is getting cold but nobody knows
Gotta numb it all,
Heart is pounding more,
Blood up to my toes,
Out into the cold,
Where nobody knows
I just need to live,
I just need to breathe,
Bout to hit the road,
Out into the cold,
In the freezing snow
I don’t think I know,
If I’ll make it home,
How the story goes,
Out into the cold,
Where nobody knows
[VERSE 2]
I just snapped
When we came back
And he tried to hit me
Now I’m up
And he’s laid flat
Praying God forgives me
Maybe stick him a closet
In the middle of it
With the wigs and the long dress
(Yes)
Do I need to burn him?
Should I be concerned,
Do I need a word?
Got a show coming,
Gotta go hunny,
Keep the hose running
I’ll be back noon,
We can chat soon,
How’s the drag, boo?
Behind the vacuum,
This is bad news,
And he can't move
I’ll just keep him here,
I won’t live in fear,
Gotta be prepared
I don’t need to bear
All the guilt in here,
Got my people scared
I’ll just clean my hair,
I’ll just be right here,
I’ll just—(gasp gasp)
I don’t feel regret,
Got what he deserves,
Got some fucking nerve
Trouble at the door,
Crouching on the floor,
Bout to run a show
Got a big applause,
But nobody knows,
How this story goes
But I’m safe now,
I feel great now,
This is great, wow
Run the tape now,
Light my face up
(Break a leg)
[CHORUS]
Battling my soul,
Have a screaming pulse,
Blood up to my nose,
Rush is getting cold,
But nobody knows
Gotta numb it all,
Heart is pounding more,
Blood up to my toes,
Out into the cold,
Where nobody knows
I just need to live,
I just need to breathe,
Bout to hit the road,
Out into the cold,
In the freezing snow
I don’t think I know,
If I’ll make it home,
How the story goes,
Out into the cold,
Where nobody knows
(I been on my own)
Battling my Soul,
Have a screaming pulse
blood up to my nose
Rush is getting cold
But nobody knows
(Have a drink tomorrow)
Gotta numb it all,
Heart is pounding more,
Blood up to my toes,
Out into the cold,
Where nobody knows
(I don’t think it’s wrong)
I just need to live,
I just need to breathe,
Bout to hit the road,
Out into the cold,
In the freezing snow
(Trouble at the door)
I don’t think I know,
If I’ll make it home,
How the story goes,
Out into the cold,
Where nobody knows
(I been on my own)
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9. |
KUMOTO
03:52
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[VERSE 1]
Sometimes I stare inside the mirror,
I don't recognize me
I drink so much
Even my liver doesn't empathize, see
My granny told me
“It's the nigga in these set of eyes, see”
She tryna say I'm socialized
Through the men that lie
Was trying to be a rolling stone at like 21
These drugs was all up in my nose I looked 31
These crackers hooked me in their fold with a steady lump
So what’s the folly does this molly got a ready sum
In the kitchen,
Geeking out I was twitching
Teething out of my wisdoms,
Peeking out for a witness
Even now I envision,
PTSD, it’s crazy
Hitting like it’s the 80s,
Feigning death is a strange thing
Young, impressionable,
Starving, any methadone?
Cartilage lexepro,
Carving up any sense I’m on
Hardly got left to go,
swarmy from neck and bones
Parked in the arm,
Reach any home in an episode
[CHORUS]
I see the people talking
I see the reasons often
I think they think I lost it
They think I need a prophet
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil
I say it’s not the demons,
They say you stopped believing
I swear it’s not from jesus
I swear this heart is beating
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil
[VERSE 2]
Back in the day,
This before highschool was cool
Was tryna walk around,
Looking for right dudes to swoon
I was lonely and I was doing what I think was cool
My hijinks ensued,
A right bitch at school
I met a new girl,
Matter fact her name was bleep that
And we were tight,
I even grabbed the chair to sit back
I told her that I be there for her,
And I really mean that
When she was sick,
I went over with the Dreamcast
But I wanted to be so accepted
From the bro’s perspective,
I made fun of her slowly death
No weeks left she felt betrayed
I'm like, oh forget it
Till she didn’t come for weeks
And I felt cold, neglected
Fast forward to her funeral in an open casket
I looked her mama in the face as I'm moping sadly
I see the body, look away in a slowly panic
That was the last thing I said I hope I choke on that shit (Damn)
[CHORUS]
I see the people talking
I see the reasons often
I think they think I lost it
They think I need a prophet
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil
I say it’s not the demons,
They say you stopped believing
I swear it’s not from jesus
I swear this heart is beating
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds, my evil (deeds)
My evil deeds—
It’s my evil fucking deeds, man
It’s my evil fucking deeds
It’s my evil fucking deeds, man
It’s my evil fucking deeds
It’s my evil fucking deeds
It’s my evil fucking deeds
It’s my evil fucking deeds
It’s my evil fucking deeds
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10. |
MUKAZI
03:21
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[VERSE 1]
I wanna tell you that you made it alive
I wanna tell you no more places to hide
I wanna tell you that even though it was hard
You really know who you are, no need to don a facade
Some people think you a star, they listening to your bars
The vision’s plastered on walls, the pictionary involved
The dictionary that you studied, then ripped apart, in a scrawl
The jeans felt so muddy but still sagged to the draws
The fears of your buddy with beef-battling woes
The periods where the static was real after it all
The tears weren't happy but still rapping with all
Your peers got so active but didn’t happen at all
I was young and depressed with hunger no less
The fun that I get was rapping with abundance in check
Just me and Izu styling with the punch of the best
Til my Dad got upset and a bunch of yall left
In the cypher rapping, that is where I found my passion
Almost like time stood still when the rhymes are blasted
Started doing way less, when the time was passing
Then did so much shit that I might need rhinoplasty
It’s a shame that the spark that I had was gone
Where’s the light in the darkness I had
I spent money on helium, not to get me high though
I had suicidal thoughts really suicidal
I mean less these days,
It’s like my life means something,
Less stressed these days
Tell uncle Abel I miss him,
Tell dad he’s forgiven
I’ll never talk to him but with all the sadness and wisdom
Tell my homies I love them, even though I don’t trust em
Tell _____ fuck him, I hope you upped and you punched him
Thank my brother for saving me, almost left in a hazy dream
I punched my chest like I’ll be here if he needs me
And to Chachi my love,
I thank you for everything that you’ve done
I keep falling in love, and
And to the hood that raised me
This my goodbye, shoutout AV!
[OUTRO]
Every little thing in my heart (everything little thing)
Every little thing in my heart is for you now (is for you now)
Every little thing in my heart (everything little thing)
Every little thing in my heart is for you now (is for you now)
Every little thing in my heart (everything little thing)
Every little thing in my heart is for you now (is for you now)
Every little thing in my heart (everything little thing)
Every little thing in my heart is for you now (is for you now)
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