asaxyguy
such an incredible evolution of all Backxwash's past work. The intensity of I LIE HERE buried with some incredible piano and choral work. feels like I went on a whole journey with this one song
Favorite track: WAKE UP.
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lyrics
I wake on the floor naked,
I had the taste of the soil
Weight on the shovel
Face in a puddle
Did I make it?
How long it been
Since I felt my pulse in the shin,
How many months is it since,
How many more will it bring?
Don’t have my body
They probably gon send me off in the wind
I played this part to the end,
Would never start it again
Would suffer the fate of men
With my lady parts in attendance
Would harbor the greed of them
As they take me back from my penance
But the social justice,
Nah I don’t give a fuck bout either
All you did was just use it and played your part cause you need it
All it is was a rusing to fake the scars for your bleeding
Now it’s you in your truth the excuses won’t need no bruising
How did you as a woman
Think that this would be different?
Why assume that the ruler
Gives two shits if you finished
Loyalty in my hubris,
I won't speak to the foolish
Only speak to the bullet
But hear the screams as I pull it
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
If what I bleed is necessary
And thou shall be indefinite
I shall not speak my heresies
I shall not speak my messages
How come thy kingdom left me here
How come thy kingdom sent me here
How come my freedom never left
Why can’t I see the Nazareth
Some nights I drink with reverence
I slur my speech with every sentence
I burn my teeth with every drank
I tell my peeps it's medicine
Life as a kid,
The fuck happened to me?
My tragedy scene is seen
As the last bastion of me
So the day of judgment
Won't try to play republic
Won't try to sway the covenant,
Absolve me I'll stay repugnant
I hope that they fully clothed my body and raked the carcass
I hope that the bullet lodged inside me made its target
Let's be honest
Put me on a cross
Parade the corpus
Cuz with the way it's going
I'll just state the obvious
So don't hate me for it
I just hope I'll never be famous for it
The way of the bravest sorry,
The blade is waiting for me I said I'm—(sorry)
Maybe it's disingenuous
Or maybe it’s the fact that I'm starting to realize that I don’t love myself
Im spending all night attempting not to judge myself
And if given another body
Woulda hung myself
I'm on the last rope
Sad to think that I had hope
Dug my knees in the back row
Can't believe I was that strong
For these last words
Won't need any adverbs
Just the silence
Cause I'm here and I’m screaming
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
Wake the FUCK up
It's been about a few days since I left this bed
Almost feels like I'm left for dead, or maybe dead instead
I waste away cause I don't see any options
I can see that I’m conscious but I just feel like I'm rotting
The lord forsaketh in awful places
I’m dealing with loss of days
The ceiling is all gaze as I rot away
I might do it but not today, see
There’s a game coming out that I really wanna fucking play
So I'll just wither and soak,
Maybe a glimmer of hope
Will slip me a note
I'm thinking it wont
Cause for now I’ll just divvy the rope
And I'll see if holds
I eat a lot and I'm bigger than most
Can't shake the feeling I'm gross
Can't find me appealing at all
I know my loved ones need me to be strong
But this atrophy is fucking up my knees and my bones
So how do I keep going on
Has anybody got advice right fore I sign the lease on my soul?
If it's a battle for the weak and the strong
I really couldn't give a fuck less I just need to be home
Right to the Mark Of the Beast
It shows is fangs as it sharpens its teeth, yeah
My armors only gold plated
Feeling like I'm clothed naked
And I know it won't save me if it targets my cheek
So through the blackened skies I will not go gentle
Take it off safety and put it on to my temple
Through the blackened skies I will not go gentle
I will not go gentle
credits
released April 17, 2024
Produced and Performed by Backxwash
Featuring Michael Go on guitar
Mixed by Will Owen Bennett
Mastered by Richard Addison / Trillium Sound Mastering
Recorded by Sarah Harris
Cover art by Méchant Vaporwave
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